I can’t really believe that it has been seven or eight months since I was blogging regularly. I do miss it, but I have also enjoyed spending my time doing other things.
I’m back today, and I want to fill you in on something that I used to talk about on the blog all the time – intuitive eating – and more particularly, where I am at with it. So, without further ado, let’s have Intuitive Tuesday on a Wednesday! (I’m such a rebel).
Intuitive eating is hard. I have often heard that it is harder than dieting, and I think that I might agree. (Since I haven’t shared about Intuitive Eating for awhile, if you don’t know what I am talking about, I highly recommend you read this book).
One area that I have struggled with when it comes to eating is learning to eat without distractions. I love curling up with a good book, my phone, Netflix, or whatever, and snacking mindlessly. Even now, I am drinking a smoothie as I type this – do smoothies really count as eating though?
The Intuitive Eating Guidelines suggest that you should practice eating mindfully and without distractions. This is so hard for me for some reason.
Another challenge I have with intuitive eating is not eating when I am not hungry. I think deep down I believed that if I only ate when I was hungry (but not TOO hungry) and stopped when I was full (but not TOO full) I would find my ideal weight, heal my relationship with food, and all would be right in the world.
The Intuitive Eating book cautions that the Intuitive Eating guidelines should just be guidelines, and not rules, yet I was finding myself trying adhere to them 100% and beating myself up with I didn’t.
As we know from diet land, giving our body a strict set of “food rules” which we must adhere to is a recipe for disaster (hello binging). I didn’t end up binging, but I soon found myself binge watching Netflix and eating everything that sounded delicious every afternoon while Lochlyn was napping. I told myself not to eat in front of the computer, but then gave in. “Starting tomorrow I would eat more mindfully”. Man, this sounds just like “starting tomorrow I will follow my diet” – all too familiar.
After observing this behaviour, and beating myself up a little too long, I realized my mistake. I decided to look in completely the opposite direction and gave the “F* it diet” a try. On this “diet” you can eat what you want to, however much you want, whenever you want it, with no guilt. Kind of like intuitive eating, but without the whole listening to your body, and eating mindfully aspect.
How did this go for me? Not so good. I found myself binge watching Netflix and eating whatever was convenient, even if it didn’t sound good. I always waited until my “break” when Lochlyn took her nap in the afternoon to do this. By dinner time, I was full and didn’t feel like having dinner with my family. I still wanted to sit down with them, so I would eat a bit, and end up not feeling too great the rest of the night. I didn’t binge eat, I did stop when I was full because I wanted to, but I wasn’t happy with my relationship with food. I started to feel depressed and lethargic, and I wasn’t quite sure what was wrong.
I can’t believe it took me as long as it did to realize that my eating habits needed to change. Honestly I think it was only a couple weeks ago that I had this epiphany.
I have some new thoughts about Intuitive Eating, and eating in general that I want to chat about, but I think that will have to wait until another post as this is getting lengthy.
Have you ever tried the “F* It Diet”? What did you think?
How about Intuitive Eating? Do you struggle with seeing the guidelines as rules?