Good morning everyone! It’s Wednesday, and today I am linking up with Jenn over at Peas and Crayons for another round of What I Ate Wednesday.
In yesterday’s Intuitive Tuesday post, I talked about the seventh Intuitive Eating principle as per this book. The seventh principle is to honour your feelings without using food and is intended to help limit emotional eating. This was probably one of the most difficult intuitive eating principles for me to put into action. I didn’t think I had a huge problem with emotional eating anymore, but paying extra attention to how I was feeling yesterday made for a pretty emotional day. I must still be using food to mask my feelings sometimes because when I was extra conscious not to, I sure felt a lot!
As some of you may know, I haven’t been feeling good lately. I have had flu-like symptoms on and off for over a week now. I am such a baby when I am sick, and being stuck at home taking care of a baby it makes it really hard. I couldn’t just go to bed and sleep when I wanted to, because I had little Lochlyn to worry about. I don’t know how mom’s with multiple kids do it!
If you’re thinking I may be one of those moms with multiple kids soon I won’t be. I may have been feeling like I am pregnant this past week, but I have a pregnancy test to prove that I’m not (and no we aren’t trying!).
Wow, that was a lot of rambling. What I was trying to say was that yesterday was a really tough day for me. There was a lot of sick food, a lot of feeling sorry myself, and a lot of feelings.
In order to journal how I was feeling before I ate, I utilized a series of questions that the book Intuitive Eating recommends asking yourself before you eat, in order to help you cope with emotional eating. I mentioned them yesterday, but for those of you that missed it, the questions were (pp. 158-159):
- Am I biologically hungry?
- What am I feeling?
- What do I need?
- Would you please … ? Is there something that you need other people (or yourself) to do to help?
I journaled my answers to these questions every time I was about to eat yesterday. The book recommends that if you can answer yes to the first question, you don’t need to ask yourself the rest. I decided I wanted to be aware of my feelings regardless of whether I was hungry or not, so I asked myself the list even if I was hungry, in order to be more aware of my feelings in general.
Now that I have got that explained, here is my day of eats from yesterday. It is not too exciting, and it is very much “sick” food. Also it is a lot less than I would normally eat, since my stomach has been pretty upset lately.
9:30 AM – Eggo waffles with applesauce (I ate more applesauce on the side too)
My favourite “sick” food is fluffy, white, diner-style pancakes with apple-sauce. I didn’t want to make pancakes, and Josh isn’t much of a cook, so I opted for Eggo waffles instead. Josh went to the store to pick these up for me the night before
- Am I biologically hungry? Yes.
- What am I feeling? Sick, tired, stressed out about how messy our house is, lethargic and lazy
- What do I need? to clean the house, rest
- Would you please …? Ask Josh to help me clean on the weekend, give myself permission to take it easy today
So you can see quite the conundrum I was having yesterday morning. I felt sick and like I needed rest, but I wanted a clean house and the mess and clutter was stressing me out!
11:30 AM – Plain yogurt with half a banana
This was my lunch. I pretty much ate this because I wanted to go to the gym in a couple hours, and I knew that if I didn’t eat anything I couldn’t go. Yogurt and a banana was the only thing I could think of that my stomach would handle. Please excuse the dark and blurry photo. I took this picture in my basement, curled up on the couch under a blanket.
- Am I biologically hungry? A little.
- How am I feeling? Tired, sick, and guilty. I want to go to the gym, but I don’t have enough energy to clean my house. Also I know that I need to take it easy.
- What do I need? Sleep.
- Would you please … ? Ease my guilt. I had made the decision by this point to try to head to the gym and get a run in. Pretty stupid I know. Since i had already decided to do this, I needed to give myself permission to go, so that I stopped feeling guilty. What I really should have done was listen to my body and not go.
1:00 PM – The other half of the banana
- Am I biologically hungry? Yes.
- How am I feeling? Tired, nauseous, guilty about going to the gym.
- What do I need? Permission to rest and skip the gym, or permission to go without feeling guilty.
- Would you please … ? Same thing as above, give myself permission to either rest or go to the gym so I stop feeling so guilty!
So, I ended up going to the gym for a quick run at around 2. I had to cut it short because I didn’t have the energy to finish. I really should have just stayed home and stayed in bed. I have been frustrated because I rarely get sick, and it feels like now that I have decided to start training for a half marathon, I have been sick so much and it is interfering with my training. Thankfully I gave myself a few extra weeks to train so that if I miss a few days it won’t be such a big deal. I learned my lesson, I should have stayed home with my baby girl and relaxed. Next time I guess.
3:00 PM – Post workout green smoothie
This was because I realized that I hadn’t eaten any veggies all day and I needed some nutrients to help me get better. This smoothie included half a banana, frozen peaches, orange juice, and a handful of spinach. I found it very orange-y. I prefer almond milk in smoothies, but I wanted to added boost of some vitamin C. As you can see, I still haven’t fixed my nails.
- Am I biologically hungry? Somewhat.
- What am I feeling? Exhausted, frustrated about not being able to finish my run, sad that I am still sick, self-pity.
- What do I need? A nap, a break, Lochlyn to fall asleep for her nap, rest.
- Would you please …? Go to sleep Lochlyn!
When I got home from the gym I put Lochlyn down for a nap before I made my smoothie. By the time I was finished, she was wailing at the top of her lungs. I went in her room to try to soothe her a few times with no luck. She wasn’t going to nap. I could tell by her cries that there wasn’t anything really wrong, but I didn’t want to let her cry too long, since she usually falls asleep by herself right away.
I ended up letting Lochlyn fuss a little bit. Before I went to get her from her crib I did participate in a quick little stress eating session.
4:00 PM – Handful of Mini Wheats cereal (not pictured).
Yuck, I don’t even like Mini Wheats!
- Am I biologically hungry? No.
- What am I feeling? Tired, stressed, upset that Lochlyn isn’t sleeping.
- What do I need? Rest, time to chill out.
- Would you please …. ? Allow myself to relax without feeling guilty about it ( I was back to feeling bad that I went to the gym but didn’t have the energy to clean my house!). I was also upset that Lochlyn wasn’t sleeping so I couldn’t lie on the couch and veg.
After letting Lochlyn fuss for a while, I took her downstairs with me and we cuddled up on the couch. I let her breastfeed to sleep while I watched Netflix. It was actually nice having my baby in my arms to cuddle. Eventually the pop-up on Netflix that asks if you want to continue watching came up, and I couldn’t get up to click the button, so I held my baby in silence and was forced to enjoy the moment. I ended up crying at the realization of how good it was to hold her close, despite how awful I was feeling. Even though it is hard taking care of a little one while you are sick, it is still rewarding being a mama.
When Lochlyn woke up from her nap, I realized she had a dirty diaper. Bad mom move there. Lochlyn can’t fall asleep on her own with a dirty diaper. I really should have checked that out when she started crying in her crib. Oops!
After Lochlyn was all changed we played for a couple minutes, then I brought her downstairs to feed her dinner and make something for myself. Josh wasn’t home yet because he went out after work with a friend, so we were on our own for dinner. I didn’t feel like making much and my stomach was still pretty upset, so sick food it was!
6:15 PM – Salt box soup (Lipton chicken noodle) with egg whites and some frozen vegetables stirred in.
Lochlyn only eats egg yolks at this point and she was having scrambled eggs, so I used her whites in my soup. I love adding eggs to my soup.
- Am I biologically hungry? Yes!
- What am I feeling? Lonely, missing Josh, sad, tired, sorry for myself.
- What do I need? Food! Also company, companionship, help with Lochlyn and dinner so I can rest a little bit.
- Would you please … ? Ask Josh to make more time for us. He has been going out more lately and I miss having him around. Also I could really use the help with Lochlyn in the evenings since I haven’t been feeling good.
I ate that bowl of soup and was stuffed. My stomach just isn’t used to eating a lot lately.
When Josh got home, I did end up asking for help, and we stayed up talking for a bit after Lochlyn went to sleep. I know I should have gone to sleep early, but it was nice to spend some time with him when he got home.
As you can see from my day, it was very emotional, and most of my actual problems were pretty minimal. It is really hard taking care of another little life, when you are feeling under the weather. I learned my lesson to take it easy on the workouts and stay home and rest when I am not feeling so great. Deciding to not work out would have saved a lot of my conflicting feelings and guilt that I had earlier in the day, and it would have given my body the rest that it was craving to get better.
I should take some lessons from Eeyore on resting – she is a pro!
Although this was one of the hardest Intuitive Eating principles for me to put into practice, I found it one of the most helpful. I don’t think that I normally check in with my feelings throughout the day, and yesterday was a good one to do it. I would recommend using these questions from time to time to check in and see if you are emotional eating. I don’t think you need to necessarily stop eating if you decide that you are eating emotionally. Journaling about your feelings can help you to feel them and figure out how to cope with them so that next time you won’t need to reach for something to snack on.
What is your favourite “sick” food?
Do you still try to work out when you are sick or am I the only crazy one? Please don’t work out when you are sick. I learned my lesson, it is a bad mistake. Listen to your body, it is craving rest for a reason! Okay, so I am mostly preaching to myself here…